As a nurse working with people with addictions, I have struggled to find my place in a system focused on crisis and symptom management affecting the individual, friends, family and community. I will share how I discovered wholeness in my work, how this changed my work, relationship with others, and my sense and experience of self. One particular client taught me and brought about an important shift in my understanding of addiction and recovery, the role of shadow, trauma, and our physiology. Changing my paradigm from a monolithic to a differentiated understanding of self was another major shift and this process of considering our multiple parts allowed me to find an integrative process towards finding wholeness.